Well, long time no update.......well the biggest thing that's happened is Tim and I broke up.  Things got a little out of control w/ our relationship so we decided to just break it off for the time being.  I'm dying w/o him, I still miss him like hell but I think we needed this break, unfortunately.  In the meantime, I've been hanging out w/ friends, going out everynight and thinking that everything will be better if I hang out w/ Gretchen.  It's pretty sad when I talk to Gino, who is a friend at work more than I talk to anyone else.  And the funny part is that he likes me like crazy but yet, he really listens to me.  It's crazy that I feel like he's really listened to me and given me the feedback that I think is best.  Last night, I went to Legends, which is my least favorite bar in the entire world, and once again, I was left alone w/ Sarah, who I hate the most, she was non-stop bitching and just fuckin' annoying.  So rather than sitting there not talking to anyone and just looking like a total bitch, I went back to Musso's where Sal, Jo and Gino were still sitting around.  Eventually, Jo and Gino left so I stayed there w/ Sal and had a very deep conversation.  It's so funny that an intimidating tall Italian was preaching to me last night.  I felt like I was on Dr. Sal's show.  He really opened my eyes to my life and what I should do about everything and anything.  There's a lot of things that are about to change in my life b/c I'm spinning out of control like this right now and I can't afford that w/ school and work and everything.  Anyway, I didn't get home til 6 am this morning so I've been sitting around the house thinking about my life and what's going to happen but now I have to get my butt in gear and do homework before Liz calls me.  I finally caught up w/ Liz today so we're going out for a little tonight.  Anyway, I'll update again sometime when I'm in a little better mood. 

Meg #25

This weekend was quite eventful.  Friday night, we worked.  It wasn't too busy but busy enough for my liking.  Then after work, Sarah, Gretchen, Brian and I headed over to Gouglersville Fire Co. for a couple of drinks.  We ended up getting really fucked up drunk and played pool.  Between Brian spilling his Windsor and Coke and me spitting the Sambuca all over the floor, it was crazy.  Eventually Sal showed up and we had a good time all night.  When we were trying to leave, a fight broke out between Sal, Brian and a couple of ex-customers and Gretchen was just served at a bar when she wasn't 21 and low and behold there was a cop sitting across the street watching the whole thing......that was really freaky.  But we made it home ok, just in time for Sarah to open the door and puke in her own driveway and stupid shit like that.  Good times   Nothing much is happening here.  I've been emailing Tiff Edwards b/c she found out that I was going to Etown college so she emailed me and we've been emailing back and forth.  It's so funny when I hear people say that they don't party, they're just nerds.  I just don't get that.  Oh well.  Maybe I should introduce her to Aaron?  

I don't know why Jo but for some reason I was thinking you went back to school.  Lol nevermind me.  I think the whole house situation, Tim and I would rather be in debt all at once then rather rent some place and then eventually get a house.  If we rent, we're never going to save money b/c we like to shop when we have extra money each week.   We're really bad for that.  The other night when we went to Wal-Mart, we only need my pills, which were $20 and toothpaste which should've been lik $4.........we ended up spending $90 on little shit that we needed on top of the stuff that we originally needed.  We're really bad.  The thing I was talking about with Tricia and Nick is that Tricia and Ashlee don't talk anymore.  And if they knew that I invited each other, they might not come.  Do you get what I'm saying?  That's cool if you wanna go back to school but my biggest piece of advice......please don't go back to cpc.  Go to HACC or some place like that.  Not cpc.  You remember how much we hated it!  That school should really go up in flames. 

Anyway, I really gotta get back to my school work.  Bluh........I'll update again sometime this week.

Meg #25 

Hey Ashley, if you read this anymore, how are you?  How are things going with you?  I thought I read somewhere that you weren't up at esbenshades anymore?  Hey, if you think of it, do you still have my Evanescence CD?  Well, if you get a chance, will you drop it off at my house?  I hope everything is good with you. 

Well, time for another update.  A lot of things have been going on lately.  Last Monday, I had the worst day of my life, I swear, like all day nothing went right.  Then to top it off, Tim and I were sitting at home just trying to get myself to relax, and my phone rang.  My mom called to tell me that Ralphy died.  My poor little guinea pig ralphy died.  He was almost 4 years old already!  So my dad buried him along the side of the house.  I know my parents were upset b/c they loved him.  It was their only pet.  Anyway, school is getting worse and worse.  I don't know how the teachers plan this but all of a sudden one week, they all plan research projects and tests and everything they could possibly fit in that one week without the consideration of other classes.   Teachers suck.  Anyway, then this past Monday night, I got a phone call from Tim, who was out hunting in Schoeneck b/c he didn't have work that day.  He called to say that he shot a 6 point buck and that he was headed over to Zach's to butcher it up.  And considering I had his phone that night, I was getting phone calls left and right for him, like usual.  So one of those people that called was Gerald so I went and picked Gerald up, who didn't believe me that Tim shot a buck so I took him over to prove it to him.  Tim had the biggest smile ever.  It was his first buck and his first deer in archery hunting.  So we spent the evening standing in the freezing cold garage watching them butcher it.  After it was all said and done, we stopped up at the truck stop to get something to eat and so that Tim could sit and tell his story.  When I showed up there, Sarah and Lindsay were sitting there having coffee after I'm assuming a night of drinking so I sat and talked to them.  It was cool but I was tired and frozen from standing outside so Tim and I left to go home.  His bed never felt soooooooo warm that night   At first, he wasn't going to have the head mounted b/c it costs almost $500 to get it done but I eventually convinced him.  I said that you only get your first once and if you don't do it with the first, you're never going to be able to show for it again.  And plus I wanted something special like that to take into our new house when we get it.  Speaking of houses, I'm really depressed right now with money.  Gretchen and I went out driving around and we stopped in at Superior Homes just to get an idea of what modular housing costs.  The house that Gretchen convinced me to look in was $119,900, which is not including the land or basement or installation.  I'm so depressed that I might be spending over $200,000 just for a DECENT house.  Then, to top it off, we stopped in at the Eden Resort to get a price list of how much the reception would cost if we had the reception there.  I just about shot myself when I saw this price list.  The cheapest room to have the reception in was $5,000 and that's NOT including the food.  The room that I wanted it in was $9,200 again, NOT including the food.  That's like a decent used car right there!  I'm so depressed.......And I was asking the house salesman how much his prices rise in about a year b/c we wouldn't be buying the house 'til next year and the guy said about $60-$70 a square yard by next year.  That is absolutely crazy!!!!!!  Prices are only going to get higher.  I would like to go ahead and buy now but I don't have enough income for a loan and Tim needs to get his truck loan paid off before he applies for another loan, especially for a $200,000 loan.  That really depresses me.  I don't wanna grow up.   I went through and wrote up a list of guests for our wedding so that we know how many people will be at the wedding and Jo and Gerry, Tricia and Nick, and (I think?) Ashlee and Chris are all going to be invited to the wedding.  Im not sure about Ashlee though b/c I really want Tricia and Nick there and if Ashlee and Chris are there, Tricia and Nick won't go.  Ay, Ay, Ay, I hate planning a wedding.  And I haven't even done that much yet.  All we did was set the date, which is going to be Sept. 9th, 2006 and where we're going to have the wedding.  That's it. That's not much.  Grrrrrrrr..........

Anyway, I gotta get back to finishing up my research paper.  I'll update later.  Bye.

Meg #25 

I'm sooooo incredibly excited for tonight!   I'm borrowing a gun from Brian for the weekend....a 20 gage shot gun.  I can't wait to get off work tonight and leave for the cabin.  I am kind of bummed though b/c Gerald won't let Gretchen come up to the cabin.   I'm really sorry Gretchen.   I really wish it wasn't like this.   But just remember, I have nothing to do with it so don't be mad at me or Tim.  Anyway, I got my monopoly project finished.......THANK GOD!!!!!  I hate that monopoly project.  Anyway, I didn't have my 8 am class today   So I woke up at 8, cleaned up the room, packed and got a shower and was at school by 9:30 am for my macroeconomics class.  Now I'm sitting in my stupid-ass information systems class, with the lady who has a thick greek accent and spits when she talks.  Soooooo boring.   Anyway, I gotta go read a little for my short story class that's at 2 pm then home to go to work and then leave for the mountains   Jo-Look under the comments for my Weds. entry.  I left you a message.  I hope I get to see you soon!  I really need you to help me fill up the camera that has Tricia's wedding pics on!  Then I can show you the pics

Meg #25

Hi Jo   I think you're like the only one that reads this thing anymore.  Anyway, I've been working a lot.  For the past 2 weekends, I've been working Friday nights and then going bar hopping with Sarah.  Crrrrraaaaazzzzzyyyyyy times.  I can't believe the people I see at bars lol. I'm mainly talking about teachers.....cough cough...... Anyway, then working saturday nights and heading up to the cabin at 11 pm when I get off work.  Tim's been going up Fridays after work and then I go up saturday nights mainly to party.  School's going.  It sucks.....I don't know how many times I can say that but it sure is a lot.  This Friday, I'm working 'til 11 pm and then Tim, Zach and I are heading up to the cabin in his truck........HEMI.  Saturday morning, Tim and Gerald are going archery hunting and then Saturday afternoon, we're all going squirrel hunting so that we can all make squirrel pot pie.    Last Sunday, Tim and Gerald got me to shoot some guns.  The first one I shot, it was a 20 gage shot gun.  I made Tim hold my ears for me b/c I didn't want it to be loud in my ear.  Lol, I'm such a girl.  The shot gun also gave a little kick to it so it somewhat hurt my shoulder too.  The second gun  I shot at a target and I hit it the first 2 shots I took.  The second gun was a 22 something rifle.  I can't remember the names for shit right now.  Anyway, if I like the gun that Tim is going to take squirrel hunting, then I will try and shoot at one.  Lol, I can't believe how much I have changed, even from a year ago at Christmas.  It's so weird b/c I never imagined myself doing this kinds of stuff.  Anyway, Jo-I'm going to be up in Juniata County all day Saturday so if you wanna meet for lunch, let me know!  This way it's not like 2 am   Tonight after I'm done with school and whenever Tim's get home from working, we're going out to eat with my parents.  Don't ask me why  I decided to ask them, I'm almost beginning to think I'm losing it, but hey, I feel bad b/c they really miss me. 

Anyway, I better get back to homework.  I'll write later this week before Friday  

Meg #25